Breaking bread is the best when the bread is pure sugar.
I tend to fall in love with places.
A bustling town square won’t say one thing and do another.
A cozy coffeeshop will never spew words to break me.
A dreamy beach house can’t uproot and leave.
Though places can renovate or go out of business, they are usually stationary and consistent.
When I travel and explore, I find out more about who I am and who I want to be.
In my love relationship with places, I’m the one in control.
I’m the one who comes and goes. I’m the one who changes. I’m the one who moves on.
My head says it would be reckless to give away my heart.
Lots of people fall in love.
It’s not a bad thing. It’s beautiful.
I adore the nature of love: seeking the best for someone over your own needs and desires, cherishing another imperfect human, experiencing the joys and sorrows of life with your closest companion.
I promise I do love people.
I make friends easily. I’m guarded, yet I gladly accept all who do the same for me.
But I’m also a healthy skeptic and this world is full of dark, mean people. It’s also full of light, pure people.
Nevertheless, we are all still people. None of us know how to love in a Goldilocks way, where it’s justtt right.
God loves in a way that’s just right.
His love is reckless.
God says, “You have an unfaithful human heart. I hope you love me in return, but if you don’t, I’ll chase you anyway. I love you.”
His love is irrevocable.
God says, “You messed up, but you’re broken. Don’t you worry. I’ve already forgotten. I’m still here. I love you.”
His love is consistent.
God says, “My love for you yesterday was equal to my love today, and my love will be the same tomorrow. I love you.”
My love should match His.
I can still guard my heart from dumb guys who won’t. I won’t hand out my number to creepy men who ask, that’s unsafe and unwise.
But when it comes to all of God’s children, I need to love deep and wide.
As a Christ follower, I’m called to love in a reckless, irrevocable and consistent way.
The Holy Spirit says, “You may get taken advantage of. You may be hurt. It’s happened before.
But I am The One who loves you far better and far more than anyone else.
My love is enough to fill your cup, to overflow from your heart and to heal you, should you ever be hurt in the process of caring for others.
Trust me. Lean on me. Love me and love my people, and love them well.
I love you.”
I was supposed to go to church with my friend Mandy (pictured above). I woke early and planned to stop by a coffeeshop, then head to her way. I accidentally went the opposite direction, turning a walk into a trek. So I decided to take the subway instead.
In the station, I ran into a couple with two, young adopted Chinese girls. I politely asked if they were adopted and struck a conversation with the parents, Carrie and Seth.
They were overwhelmingly kind and incredibly excited to meet, asked the do’s and don’t’s of raising their daughters and told me they were Christians on their way to church. I told them about Red Bus Project andShow Hope, my blog and a bit of my story in the 10 min. we were together.
It was an incredibly crazy God moment. It pumped me up even more for the next few months when I can dedicate nearly all of my time, focus and effort into sharing about how God faithfully, continually loves me through adoption.
Praise the God who does CRAZY, BIG things even in the simplest of days!
It’s freezing, but I’m surviving here in New York. Plenty of layers & wonderful new and old friends give this cold-bodied Texan a warm, happy heart.
God takes care of His treasured children.
He provided two generous couples to host me while I intern with Red Bus Project in Nashville.
At almost one week away from the big move, I was at peace with potential homelessness/couch surfing, though it wasn’t ideal.
Lesson: If God calls you to it, He will make a way. Even if it does not make logical sense, even if you have to sacrifice comfort or friendships or lodging, He will provide a path. And He will be faithful. And He will bless you, because you will bless others by following His will.